"We
haven't had any communication in a while, and it's given me time I needed to
think."
That's the start of
one of my favorite monologues from the book-to-film adaptation of Eat,
Pray, Love. I also thought it would be an appropriate beginning to answer
the question, "Where the hell have you been over the past year?"
My last post was
written with me scratching my head while standing at a crossroads. My
sense of home was being split between three states, my Bucket List was growing
longer every day, and I was swimming in this big pool of uncertainty, which was
bad enough considering I can only doggie paddle.
I was overwhelmed,
overworked, and just over the idea of settling. Something needed to change. I
needed to change. I joined the ranks of twentysomething job candidates looking for
something better. I made cold calls, killed several trees to make resumes and
cover letters, made last minute trips for job interviews, pounded the pavement
in cold December weather wearing 3-inch heels and a pin-striped business suit,
tried to sell myself with the typical 30-second elevator speech…all in hopes
that someone would finally see my full potential.
I'm happy to report
that 2012 rolled in with a new job and a new location. I came back home to the
north NJ/NYC area. This year has been good to me, but that’s not to say that it
hasn’t come with its challenges.
So, why am I back at Eat
& be Mary? Over the past year, I’ve been able to cross off several
items on my Bucket List that I never thought I could actually do. Writing a
blog was on that list, too, but it was always a “stop and go” type of project
because I never really knew what I wanted this to be. So, with doubts that
people would ever read this, with fears of being ridiculed for what I had to
say, and with lack of commitment and drive needed to realy make this work, I
let it go.
But this blog has
always been on my mind. I want another go at it. I don't want to settle. And if an audience is still out there - I'd appreciate the company.
“I say: ‘Attraversiamo.’
Let’s cross over.” – Elizabeth
Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
Someone out there decided to have faith in me, my writing skills, and my love/obsession with food. Then *poof* this blog was born.